Unexpected Mail

I finished putting all the new things in my kitchen (pots, pans, neon sign, incredibly annoying coo coo clock, etc.) and realized our fridge was almost empty. I made a list and went to the store. When I got back, the guy at the front desk in the lobby told me that an envelope had come for me yesterday in the mail but that it had been delivered to my old apartment so the lady now living there gave it to him. I was carrying a lot of bags, so I told him to just stick it in my purse.

I didn’t remember about the envelope until after I finished putting away all the food. When I took it out of my purse I was shocked by what I saw. It was from White & Case in New York, the law firm my father works for. I didn’t open it and it’s still on the table. I’m not sure I want to do with it. Part of me wants to put it through a shredder or throw it into an open flame because I am absolutely terrified of what might be in there. I’m pretty sure it’s going to be an angry letter scolding me for not calling them since I got back to LA (even though they didn’t contact me at all after they moved to New York). I don’t want this to be a repeat of my mom’s angry 4:30 in the morning phone call a few days ago.

I’m trying my best to view this letter the way I viewed my mother’s angry phone call: progress. Yes, this probably is an angry letter, but an angry letter is progress from no contact at all.  I really want my very delicate relationship with my parents to improve, so I have to be careful about how I view these things.

I don’t think I’m ready to open it, but I’m going to do my best not to put this off to long.